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Anxiety, Bariatric Surgery, Chronic Lyme disease, Cushings, exercise, Gastric Sleeve, Health, Healthy living, Lose 100 lbs, Lose 150lbs, Lyme disease, Panic Attacks, PCOS, Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, Weight Gain, Weight Loss, weight loss journey, Zyprexa
I really am determined to fight this weight loss journey fight.
I am not going to have bariatric surgery unless everything else fails. I currently am quite morbidly obese and have come to realize step one of overeaters annoymous,
Hi my name is Amber and I am powerless over food.
My weight journey started many moons ago. I saw a movie in junior high about two girlfriends who start throwing up their food. In fact that’s what I then decided to do as well. I was a size 0-3 at the most for many years. I didn’t eat, if I thought I had to or say for appearences sake I’d immediately throw it up. When I was in tenth grade my best friend at the time told our high school counselor. I only took breaks from then to a little while longer, soon I had my unhealthy relationship with food and my body image once again.
As I backed away from.my bulimia and anorexia I got better but later on I started putting on weight and fast. First, it was my thyroid gland. I had developed hypothyroidism. Then doctors were convinced I had Cushing’s. Still never proven that I have that.
I cannot tell you how many tubes blood I have had drawn, lumbar puncture (unguided by idiot e.r. doctor), countless brain MRIs and head CatScans, MRA of my stomach vessels, many upper endocopies and one colonoscopy. I have also done two sleep studies, breathing tests, x-rays, been in back and knee braces and I still feel awful.
Lately I believe the increase in my psychiatric medications especially Zyprexa and Depakote are making the pounds stick to me and fast!
… I get my brain balanced and my body goes hair-wire. And vice versa.
Somehow I need to push the reset button. Reset! 🤪